Tomorrow my boys start school. Headless Boy #1 will enter the 7th grade at the junior high, and Headless Boy #2 will be in 5th grade, still at the elementary school. For the first time in their lives they will be on completely different paths.
I'm having a "I can't believe how fast it has gone" moment, complete with "Oh woe is me," and "It can't be true."
We have really had a great summer. Mammoth, Camping, Colorado, Soak City. Veg-Out days. It just hasn't been nearly enough.
There are great things ahead, I know. An new year is full of new possibilities and new friends and new opportunities to do things heretofore unimagined. I have smart boys who always impress.
I guess I'm just sad at what we could have done had we had a few more weeks. I really like these kids-including their sister!- and wanted just a little more time in this last summer before we have another teenager. I feel like our days are numbered for things like this. Days of just the 3 of us. See, I've already 'lost' one of my babies to college and adulthood. (Which, don't get me wrong, is a good thing. She's an amazing young woman but looking back there are days and times that I wish I could have back.)
Such is the dichotomy of motherhood. Loving your children as small beings but preparing them to leave you. Kinda sucks sometimes, ya know? Especially when you really, really enjoy their company.
So, to my boys on your first day of school 2012, Mama loves you. Always. I hope you have a fantastic year full of learning and fun and new experiences that help you grow into the fantastic men that I know you will be.