Saturday, November 7, 2009

Memories of BlogHer '09

Do you look back on events and wonder "What an (a@@, jerk, airhead, choose-your-adjective,) I was!"?

BlogHer is/was a great experience. I would recommend it to anyone. I have loved meeting my blogging idols, my readers, the writers that blow me away with every post. Getting to go to a new city to play with new friends has been great.

Funny thing though. I most vividly remember the awkward moments-yes, regarding myself.

There was the moment that I tried to introduce myself to someone that was in the middle of a circle of old friends and she hardly saw/heard me. (Totally my fault for doing that at that moment.) Seriously, she doesn't remember it at all.

There was the introduction to someone and I ate my size 9 1/2's commenting on her blog name, thinking it was spelled one way, then nanoseconds later I realized it was spelled another way with a totally different meaning. Ugh. Such a jerk.

One night (day? It all runs together,) a big-to-me blogger enthusiastically introduced herself to me. I must have been totally out of it because I think I mumbled something stupid like "oh hi." Um, she is pretty big. She came over to talk to me. In retrospect "OMG!!!!!!! SHE WANTED TO TALK TO ME!!!" but at the time I remember acting all "meh." Totally one of those moments that I want a do-over on. I big-pink-puffy-heart her, and I really hope that my memory is bad and she remembers this incident waaaay different than I do.

I have dozens of stories like these throughout my life. Remind me and some day I'll share my dating blunders with you. For some reason being at BlogHer amplifies my awkwardness.

Why do we remember things differently than they happen? I mean, I hope that I remember these things differently than others do, but I don't think so.

Headless Mom


Just Breathe said...

I know that this is easier said then done but don't dwell on it.
I bet that most people feel the same way you do, they just don't have the balls to say it! Also,
I doubt that it was the way you see it in your mind. Let go and let God.

Liz@thisfullhouse said...

I loved hanging out with you and only wish we could have done it more often. In real life, too :)

SJ said...

BlogHer09 was my first and man was I overwhelmed, just like I thought I was going to be! Chicago was awesome and I had a fantastic time however I wish I would have put myself out there more and met more people and talked to everyone I could possibly talk to. Maybe next year in NYC - you going?

Mocha said...

I love that you took your time to write about your experiences at BlogHer 09 because the way you remember it NOW compared to how you would have written about it when you remembered it THEN are actually two different things.

I hope I wasn't a stupid ass to anyone. But how they remember it might play out differently... hmm.

Rocks In The Wash said...

I don't care how awkward or non-awkward you are... I think you're the BEST!

Actually... I don't think I ever remember you being awkward, I just remember you being "there" and always willing to have fun!

Thanks for all of the wonderful memories!

Carmen said...

I only remember you being amazing and beautiful. As usual.