For Day 30, I thought I'd kind of 'save the best for last,' so to speak. I don't think it's the best, but I suppose it's the biggest news around here.
We quit smoking at the beginning of the month. HD decided that we were going to quit a few months ago. We went to our doctor and got Chantix. It's been 25 days or so.
Yes, I said that HD decided. Not me.
To be quite honest with you, I did not want to quit. I still like it. Not the optimum conditions for quitting. He has talked about it pretty seriously for a few years now and when our life insurance came up for renewal this year (more than doubling in cost if we simply renewed as smokers,) he decided that the time was now. While I haven't necessarily been on board, I have participated. All month.
For anyone out there wondering about Chantix, it works. But you really need to read the package insert and talk to your doctor. If you are taking medication for depression it is critical that you talk to your doctor. For the first 2-3 weeks we both felt like zombies. It's better now, somewhat. Also, there are other side effects that effect the intestines. No more details, but be forewarned. Ahem.
I'd like to say that I'm happier and feel better but I don't really feel like anything. Except having a cigarette. I still think about it all.the.time. Well, that's not true. At the beginning it was really bad but now it's only during my biggest trigger moments-while having a drink, after a meal, those types of things.
HD likes to talk about it to get support. Luckily he can talk about it all day at work or with whoever he wants. I don't like to talk about it because it makes me want it more. Talk about 2 drastically different styles! I have talked about it with him because he needs the support and he has specifically not talked about it with me because that's how I need support. Weird, but it works.
So there you have it. The Elephant in the Room that I still don't want to talk about but thought you should know about.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
The Elephant in My Room
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*whispering congrats and nice job*
Wow- what a month on many levels. Thanks for your example of doing fun things and hard things-- even when you don't want to. Here's to a December filled with all that really matters.
Nice job! But that's all I am going to say :)
Excellent. I always assume that no one smokes until they tell me they smoke. My GF smoked for about 70yrs? Started at 11? quit at 80 and lived to 98. I believe that some people "need" to smoke for the safety of others(anxiety), but then again it's also for the safety of others that my GF quit. GM had Cancer, so he quit.
Not talking about how proud I am of you......
OMG! I am so proud of you!!! I know in college you loved the menthol smokes and I can totally understand how difficult it is to give up; I stopped when I left Colorado.. 24 years ago! I had to get rid of all of my "habit areas;" even my car. Yes, do I still like the smell, I do have to admit it, I do. Do I feel better? Heck Ya! Keep at it my friend, you will add years on to your life that you now will be able to spend with family. :)
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